March 2013
1 post
“Laugh, even when you feel too sick or too worn out or tired.
Smile, even when...”
– Alysha Speer
February 2012
3 posts
“go on and hold her ‘til the screamin is gone
go on believe her, when she...”
– the only one
i want to believe everything will turn out ok. but this isn’t a movie. i’m boring and average and broken for no apparent reason. nobody is going to find something special in me, a reason to get past my walls, a reason to want to get to know me. nobody is ever going to listen to me and hold me when i cry and make be believe that i’m wanted. i want to believe that it could happen-...
“i feel like i’m screaming at the top of my lungs, but nobody even notices”
January 2012
7 posts
i don't wanna think about it
stop making me think about it. i don’t want it to happen to you. i don’t want to know that your only two options might be death, in which case we will never see you again, or living afterward, and i know exactly how much that sucks. i wouldn’t be able to know that such a sweet and kind and perfect person is having the nightmares and the flashbacks and the memories. i...
“What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who...”
– Chuck Palahniuk (via awasteoflife
)
“Please just let me wallow in my sorrow this one time. Just let me be upset and...”
– (via alleygator
)
The hurt never leaves you, it's always there...
alleygator:
always.
December 2011
12 posts
new year, new start. can't wait!!
#ItAintRapeIf is trending on twitter
i don’t want to live on this planet anymore
“I’m not afraid of you. There’s nothing you can do to me that hasn’t been done...”
– I Wrote This For You (via anything-tomakeyousmile
)
maybe someone else gets it?
Do people know what it's like?
Do they know what it’s like to be afraid of your own thoughts?
To be afraid of what you will see when you close your eyes to fall asleep? Of what you will see when you dream?
Do they know what it’s like to be afraid of what you see in the mirror? Or rather, what you don’t see? That big empty space in the eyes that look back at you, inside a face you used to recognize as your...
made it through one year
let’s see if i can do it again
November 2011
12 posts
“go ahead and say goodbye, i’ll be alright
go ahead and make me cry,...”
– i got you- leona lewis
so over rape →
well this is awesome
apparently all my “friends” spend their time talking about me and how weird and fat i am whenever i’m not in the chill zone. cool guys. thanks.
what would you think of me now?
song that never fails to make me cry
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9pQo9OQlIB8
stop trying to fucking "fix" me
you can’t just read a parenting book and suddenly understand me
that would require you actually having BEEN THERE for some part of my fucking childhood
you had your chance to know me and be close to me, and you blew it
don’t be mad at me for not telling you shit or being super close like other girls are with their parents- their parents probably said “i love you” once in...
“I know what its like to want to die; how it hurts to smile; how you try to fit...”
October 2011
13 posts
“imperfection is beauty, madness is genius, and it’s better to be...”
– Marylin Monroe
“i fly with the stars in the sky
i am no longer trying to survive
i believe...”
– nicki minaj
“I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive
I came to win, to survive, to...”
“Mr. Know It All
Well ya think you know it all
But ya don’t know a thing...”
– Kelly Clarkson Mr. Know It All
“next time ill be braver, ill be my own savior
standing on my own two feet
i...”
– adele turning tables
3 tags
that awkward moment when i wake up screaming in...
i wish i didn't jump every time somebody touched...
“life is like a cartoon in the newspaper. up close its just a mass of dots, but...”
as the nights get longer and darker, so do my...
exerpt
when i am happy and that memory drags me down, it will also drag you down. so this is all i have to say to you and your friends- you cannot erase that night any more than i can- it will follow you for the rest of your life. and i hope that when it makes you miserable, you will be able to understand that that feeling is only a fraction of how horrible you made me feel, how much you twisted me...
old draft sitting around. to post or not to post?
i don't think people realize is that what i want...
like the way they treat other girls. not like they have to like me and stuff, but like hold the door for me and let me go first and dont push me around in the hallway. like maybe im more breakable than i look. like maybe i like to feel pretty and girly sometimes. like maybe i give a shit how people see me. the same things they do for every other girl. just not for me. that’s all i want.